An End and a Beginning

Yesterday was my last appointment at the weight center and I went out with...a gain.
There are no excuses for why I gained weight back. I could have done a lot of things differently to avoid that but I didn't. The worst part was when the Doctor came in (with her student that was following her) and they have to tell you that you gained weight even though they know that you are fully aware. The look on their face was like they were telling me that my dog died.
It is what it is; I can't linger on that moment and let it affect me more than it needs to.

We discussed my plans with my insurance and the timeline for my surgery.
I will be switching to my husband’s insurance plan for the surgery because they have less out-of-pocket expenses. Since I will be saving about $40/week not paying for my insurance I will be opening up a flexible spending account to help with my deductible expense. This is what is delaying the surgery so much. As it stands I could have surgery at the end of this year but My insurance plan through my employer doesn't renew until May 2015 and that is when I can open the flexible spending account. My husband's insurance has an initial deductible expense of $1000 and that is what I will be saving for.
As it stands I need to meet with my PCP to get a referral letter for surgery as well as a low-dose prescription for cholesterol medication so that it is documented. At the beginning of the weight clinic my cholesterol was very slightly elevated which is why she suggests going on medication. Would I be ok without it? Sure.
Would it benefit me to be on it? Most likely. This medication will be my second and final co-morbidity in order to qualify for surgery.

At the beginning of the appointment they always get my weight, blood pressure, pulse, and hip and waist measurements. My weight was 228.4 and my BP was 132/70…very high for me; my normal used to be 117/70.

This is becoming more real and I couldn’t be more excited. I want my life back and I can’t wait for the journey to progress.