Inspiration

Making the decision to move forward with weight loss surgery was not easy. I still struggle with the feeling of defeat; that my weight beat me and I am surrendering. I have to remind myself why I want this and look at my inspirations; the self-hate just falls to pieces after that. I have 2 amazing children and a dreamboat husband, my friends, my life. 

A number of my family members have had weight loss surgery so I don't have to look too far for advice, motivation, and my future.
One of my best friends is my Aunt and she just celebrated her 1 year anniversary of her vertical sleeve gastrectomy. She has loss a total of 102 pounds and she said she has never felt better- EVER. She has more energy, is happier, and just wouldn't change it for anything. She said he major improvement is her energy because now she can do so many things that weren't even a possibility a year ago. The downside is that she waited too long to lose the weight and now she has arthritis so she cant exercise very much but she doesn't need to; she is perfect. Everything about her has changed; she is so much happier, her smile is brighter and she just radiates positive energy.

That is what I want; a total body and mind renewal. The kids are getting harder to keep up with and I just can't wait until the day that I can keep up with them (or maybe even outlast them....keep dreaming).